YOU SAID:

I won and I wanted to lose.

INTO JAPANESE

私は勝ったと私は失うことを望んでいました。

BACK INTO ENGLISH

I wanted it to have won I lose.

INTO JAPANESE

私はそれは私が失う勝ったと思いました。

BACK INTO ENGLISH

I think it was I thought I won lose.

INTO JAPANESE

私はそれは私が失う勝ったと思ったと思います。

BACK INTO ENGLISH

I think it was I thought I won lose.