YOU SAID:

I want to commit suicide without killing myself

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私は自分自身を殺すことがなく自殺したいです。

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But would I kill myself is like committing suicide.

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しかし、自分は自殺したいが私を殺します。

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However, it kills me that I want to commit suicide.

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しかし、それは自殺したい私を殺します。

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But it kills me to commit suicide.

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しかし、それは自殺する私を殺します。

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But it kills me to commit suicide.