YOU SAID:
i am actually so close to killing myself right now
INTO JAPANESE
私は実際に自分自身を今殺すことにとても近い
BACK INTO ENGLISH
I am very close to actually killing myself now
INTO JAPANESE
私は今実際に自分自身を殺すことに非常に近い
BACK INTO ENGLISH
I am very close to actually killing myself now
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